giving up day.

just yesterday, was SO shocked on what my friend told me. she told me that my x (which i honestly love until now) and a girl (which is so plastic to me) were confrimed that there together. it sooo shocking! i don't know what should i do. at first i was sort of "monotone girl" i don't talk to anyone. i just drove. so how was that? then i texted one of my friends and told him that i was so pissed off on the confirmation. and to clam myself, i did tlak to my bestfriend. he made me realize a lot of things. (sermon ever) haha. pero i learned for that night.

but then today! oh my! i felt like i don't wanna attend my class because it so boring, like it wil just keep me think about THEM. so i decided not too. but my friends forced me to attend my class and while they did force me i did break down. yes, i did. i did cry infront of my friends. i even cried while i'm driving on my way to tagaytay. i was planning to have a good trip to forget the sh*t i encountered. i shouted on a clear spaced there. on my way down, i saw them! they were going to tagaytay. and i was shouting inside of the car while driving. i asked myself if i deserved that. the things that are happening around me. i cried and cried. ohhh.. this is life! i just have to accept things.

but i'm so lucky i have this girls. they see me as a "strong lady" like i can overcome the pain that is going on with me. i cried with them. they were there for me. i cried because of a man whom i really really love, whom i love for 4 years. i cried for a man who did "some things" who hurt me many times, but still i'm here forgive him. one of my friends told me that it was a good sign for me. it is a sign to move on and forget the things that happened. it's time for me to move on.. to move on step by step. not to skip nor take a BIG step. and it's time to GIVE UP. and now i give up. I GIVE UP.