giving up day.

just yesterday, was SO shocked on what my friend told me. she told me that my x (which i honestly love until now) and a girl (which is so plastic to me) were confrimed that there together. it sooo shocking! i don't know what should i do. at first i was sort of "monotone girl" i don't talk to anyone. i just drove. so how was that? then i texted one of my friends and told him that i was so pissed off on the confirmation. and to clam myself, i did tlak to my bestfriend. he made me realize a lot of things. (sermon ever) haha. pero i learned for that night.

but then today! oh my! i felt like i don't wanna attend my class because it so boring, like it wil just keep me think about THEM. so i decided not too. but my friends forced me to attend my class and while they did force me i did break down. yes, i did. i did cry infront of my friends. i even cried while i'm driving on my way to tagaytay. i was planning to have a good trip to forget the sh*t i encountered. i shouted on a clear spaced there. on my way down, i saw them! they were going to tagaytay. and i was shouting inside of the car while driving. i asked myself if i deserved that. the things that are happening around me. i cried and cried. ohhh.. this is life! i just have to accept things.

but i'm so lucky i have this girls. they see me as a "strong lady" like i can overcome the pain that is going on with me. i cried with them. they were there for me. i cried because of a man whom i really really love, whom i love for 4 years. i cried for a man who did "some things" who hurt me many times, but still i'm here forgive him. one of my friends told me that it was a good sign for me. it is a sign to move on and forget the things that happened. it's time for me to move on.. to move on step by step. not to skip nor take a BIG step. and it's time to GIVE UP. and now i give up. I GIVE UP.

a several months of happiness :)

we started as friends, way back in high school. after we graduated were still friends and we were very close to each other. for every problem i had he's the first person who will know that. we stick in the thought of "nandito lang ako PALAGI for you" and it was. but one day, we had this talk. we pretended to be "us", like we had a real relationship. at first it is a joke, and i don't pay much of my attention in my relationship with him. but time had passed, one day, he told he loved me, i was shocked. i didn't pay attention for what he said so i laughed. then after a week i asked, "why did you told me that you love me?" the he replied "i love you, literal, i love you" i don't know what to say. so i just respond him with the words "ahh, okay.." after a week, i fell in love with him. all the lies and joke became TRUE. we are so happy together. we shared a lot of things. we fought because of jealousy and other minor stuffs. then our relationship was tested with a big problem, he made a wrong thing. (and i will not mention it in my blog) i told him i want to end our relationship but he doesn't want it. he told so many words just to win me back. after that i alwasy asked him to stop the relationship whenever he hurted me, but he fought for me. one day i asked him what am i to him? what is my sense to him? he just told me the words "your my one and only MWA". it was so sweet. everyday when i woke up i read his message "good morning.. i love you MWA" and every time we sleep at night he leaves me a message of "good night.. i love you". we always make sure to go out 2-3 times and if we have a free day we take the chance for us to be with each other. we always ate at yellow cab, sometime at pizza hut, we ate at dencios. we went to TAGAYATY two times. we had a great relationship but time and misundertanding seperate us.and one afternoon, i asked him if were still okay? he said i don't know. that's the time he decided to stop the relationship because we didn't see each other for a long time. and (the stupid word) i said "okay". and that's it, but i realized i love him so did everything just to win him back, but he didn't came back. the saddest part was he told were still friends but now, where is it?

i don't know why i wrote a blog about our relationship. is it because i really enjoyed my life with him, and looking forward for the future? and since i accepted it, and i let him go. maybe i'm ready to move on nad never went back to him?

right now, all i know is i miss a friend. a friend who was always there for me.

if ever you'll went thru my blog i have something to say..
"could you forgive me, and be my friend AGAIN? i miss my friend, khulet."

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fuego 08

i went to fuego beach with my friends =) here are some captured moments.. hehe.. =)

meeting time: 5am (too early)

while waiting.....

let's go!! haha.

Fuego Beach!!!!!!

1st line from left to right: paris, av, nicole, mia, makota, paula, dina, cg, ken, ghec.
2nd line from left to right: miggy, jed, domeng, joey..

*migs was the one to took this picture...

girls!!! with cg miggy and jed..

background: fuego beach! c:

paris cathed a jellyfish! haha nice one!

me and paris (under water)

enjoying the heat of the sun c:

girls at the island c:

eating time!!

leaving...

dinner at yellow cab tagaytay

yea! so fun! all of us enjoyed.